A change on the horizon?

As I’ve vaguely mentioned already, over the past of weeks I’ve had a pretty rough ride. It’s really making me consider what I should do next? I’ve been looking into a career change for a while, but having little to no luck. I’m finding it increasingly harder to find the self-confidence and self belief I can still pursue my dreams and ambitions.

I’ve always wanted to do something creative or helping people and struggled for years to define exactly what I want to do. I’ve gone from design, to nursing, to creative communications (whatever that may be). After spending a lot of time with one of my best friends whose been looking after me through all this I had the opportunity to meet an artist friend of hers who was visiting from Canada.

I chatted with them both a lot and they’ve made me realise that once I’m in a better position to do it I should stop finding excuses, as I always manage to find one, start looking after myself more and go out to find what my next challenge is.

I’ve been considering doing this in various ways – a new job in London? New job, new city in the UK? Travel? Or even look into working abroad for a few months to broaden my horizons. This something I’ve wanted to do for years but never really found the right opportunity or time to do it. It’s an experience I would have liked to have shared as I’m not the most outgoing or confident person but may be this would help with that as there is no one to even consider sharing this with at the moment.

I got in touch with a friend who moved to Hong Kong after university and asked her for some pointers, I’m not sure China would be a place I’d want to work, although it is on my list of places to visit. She gave me some very frank advise that I hadn’t taken into consideration but helpful none the less.

I’m hoping that in the next few weeks I’ll be able to set some firm decisions, which is exciting and daunting. Either way I’m hoping for some new challenges and experiences over the summer and hopefully defining what I want to do as a career more. Still pursue something in the creative industry, potential involving communications in some way? Maybe something involving Social Media which I’m finding more and more interesting or may be something completely different.

Time to do so serious thinking!

The Power of Now

On the advise from 3 different friends, all of whom have varying personalities, I've decided to start reading this book by Eckhart Tolle over the weekend. This isn't my first genre of choice, and I've never really given consideration to self help books before, but I'm going to trust their judgement. Watch this space for some changes....

My Technology Can Save The World

I spent last night at the Dana Centre, which is part of the Science Museum, attending a talk on geo-engineering called “My technology can save the world”. We had 3 very compelling theories proposed to us on how new pieces of technology can be introduced to assist in the fight against climate control and CO2 emissions by Tim Fox, Lindsey Malcolm and Nem Vaughan. The ideas were:

~ Artificial Trees - in lamens terms an electronic air filtering system
~ Bio-Char - remvoing the CO2 from the air and storing it in ways it can be reused for "green" methods such as crop fertilisation.
~ Photo-Bio reactors - creating bio-fuel by removing CO2 from the air to aid in the growth of the algae which can be converted into a fuel source.

As an audience we were then given an opportunity to grill the panel on their theories before voting, “Ready, Steady, Cook” style on which theory we favoured. The winner, with a large majority of the votes, was Tim Fox with his Artificial Trees.

Appreciation for the words

I've always enjoyed listening to the lyrics in a song, and appreciating the meaning behind the words not just the music. This is one of my all time favourite songs, it happened to come up on my iPod yesterday, for the first time I realised just how poetic the lyrics actually are. - Enjoy!

November Rain
by Guns'n'Roses

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone
I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my
own Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain


Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

Chris Ofili

I had a heck of a lot on my mind on Saturday, so I decided to use my tried and tested cure. I plugged in my iPod and just started walking towards Central London. I ended up at Tate Britain where the Chris Ofili exhibition was in its last few days. I've wanted to see this for some time and this was going to be my last opportunity as the exhibition ended on the 16th.

It was extremely interesting; it was shocking and very original. You could tell there was a lot of passion and thought behind all of his pieces. They were mostly made up of Elephant dung, glitter and map pins, these probably shouldn't work as a medium for art especially on canvas or linen, but for some reason him it did.

I have a feeling I'm going to need a lot more of these trips in the coming weeks so next I think I'll give Henry Moore a shot!

I'm back and here to stay

I use to be a blogger until the end of last summer, I stopped as I started to find it too time consuming finding things to ramble on about. Due to recent events I've found writing therapeutically cathartic again so I’m going to give it another shot. Sadly I was unable to resurrect my previous account so I’m starting from scratch.